Hush

It’s his eyes that I could only see
And the shadows that danced on the wall
Silhouettes which moved freely
Like aphorisms others cannot see.
It’s his breath I could only feel
And the beating of our hearts as shadows moved
Pounding like a gong starting a feast
Racing like cheetahs on a verdant field.
It’s his arms I could only touch
And the lump in your throat that whispered
Whispered with the tone of our pounding hearts
Saying words that seems so endless, seems so real…
It’s his voice I could only listen
And the bodily art he created for the shadows
Dancing like clouds in the vast heavens
Filling each other’s emotions with tenderness.
Indeed,
It’s his eyes that I could only see
It’s his breath I could only feel
It’s his arms I could only touch
It’s his voice I could only listen
The world was emptied with people
It was only you and me…
But I can no longer see the shadows
Only a lonely silhouette of a girl…
Cuddling her teddy bear
Thinking deeply as tears rolled down her cheeks,
Wondering what to do with the life she is conceiving
Regretting the day she believed him when he said,
“Hush…dance with the shadows…”

Gather

Gather
08-23-08
5.59 pm

Yesterday dwells inside me,
It slowly kills me.
It cuts me into pieces.
It breaks me.
Yet no one dares to pick it.
To rearrange it.
To fix it.
To complete it.
Tomorrow is just a dream.
It consumes me.
It saddens me.
It fears me.
The pieces will still be there.
It bleeds often.
It stays incomplete.
It remained broken.
Can you bring back the pieces for me?

emotional crystal

08-23-08
6.31 pm

It peeped out in the corners of my eye
Glittering like a crystal…
Slowly coming out with the pour of emotions
Seeping out of the cracks in my heart
Which was once red and healthy
Yet turned gray and frail.
Little by little it crawled on my cheeks
Trying to give comfort.
My mind runs like a broken compact disc,
Replaying moments,
Flashing back words,
It all seemed real
It all seemed right.
My cheeks are glittering with the emotional crystal;
I felt it with my fingers…
And it pained me.
It hurts knowing that I have to shed it again for you.
It is hard to absorb reality
Coz the reality I know is different from the veracity.
It is hard to accept the truth
Knowing that I had been dwelling with so much lies,
My face now glitters with the crystal…
And I won’t wipe it.
It’s my only way to pour out emotions,
To lessen the pain,
To give out hatred
To accept the truth
To learn living without you.
I’ll just let it dry naturally
So please don’t wipe it.